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I'm sorry about last night. I wasn't feeling my best and that journal is how I decided to vent. Thank you so much for your kind comments. I feel a little silly about it now. I will take the hiatus, however. It'll help me too since I'm about to have my finals next week. Once the holidays' break starts, I'll come back.

Thank you, everyone.
I just can't. I can't. I'm too tired, I'm too angry, I'm too everything.

My art remains the same as before, my ideas don't change, I've acomplished NOTHING during this year which is about to end. How the fuck do  I even expect to study animation?? My mother doesn't want me to, I doubt of my skills, and everything is looking so dark right now.

I've been hurt again and again during the year; I haven't recovered from my depression ever since January or February; I keep getting replaced by someone better; I'm losing my friends; I'm losing my motivation; I don't even know what the hell I'm going to do with my life. I might end up studying something I don't want to for years and once I'm finished realize that I've wasted so much fucking time of my life.

I see how the people I admire continue to grow as artist and I stay stuck here. I'm tired.
Maybe I'm not fit for this after all? But I don't want to do anything else.
"Why are you drawing manga again?  You'll never acomplish anything" I don't even draw manga you dumb fuck.
"Again with those doodles? Do something productive for once!" This is what I want to do with my life, do you understand the concept of getting better??
"Of course you're my best friend" Right, and that's why you left me for someone else as soon as we changed classrooms. You don't ever speak to me even though we're sitting right next to eachother this year.
"I love speaking with you" Yet we haven't spoken more than 10 times in this whole year, most were 5 minute chats.

I'M SICK. I CAN'T DO THIS. IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND??? WHO CARES ANYWAYS, ALL I'M DOING IS WASTING MY SHORT LIFE TIME. WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO IMPORTANT TO YOU ALL OF SUDDEN? YOU NEVER CARED FOR WHAT I WANTED BEFORE.

AND IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE REALLY CARES FOR MY ART. ALL I CAN DO IS SHITTY BUSTS IN SHITTY ANGLES. I MISS MY CHARACTERS, I MISS DRAWING FOR FUN. NOW I JUST DO IT TO FEEL BETTER, AND THAT IS MAKING ME SICK.




I might be in a hiatus for a bit, to calm things down. Sorry. Not like it'll make a difference anyways. Happy holidays.
  • Mood: Rage
  • Reading: Gekkan Shoujou Nozaki-kun
  • Watching: Les Revenants (The returned)
  • Playing: DMMd
  • Drinking: Water
EDIT (16/11/2014): SO

I couldn't livestream yesterday as I planned for IRL circumstances, HOWEVER I have time to livestream tonight. I'll be taking sketch requests only, unless I say otherwise. So feel welcome to come and ask for one!

RULES:

  • One sketch per person.
  • One character per person (unless I say otherwise).
  • No furries.
  • No overly-sexual content (not tonight folks).
  • I am free to refuse to draw a request if I decide to.
  • Please don't be a 'ghost', I livestream to interact with you guys ;v;

If you're interested, I could turn on my camera or mic so you hear me eat my dinner .D.

Here's the link if you'd like to come! -----> www.livestream.com/alisonlynn
  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Free! soundtrack
  • Drinking: Water
Sketchdump 5 by Alison-lynn
Sketchdump 5
SOOOOOOO

I sketch a lot, though most of my sketches don't make it to DA because I either forget to scan them or I forget where they are. So here you go, a bunch of sketches  I've drawn during 2014, though not all of them of course. I might have to make a part two of this later...


Now, who this characters are:


1° The first five drawings or so are of my character Morck on his human form. He has a rather sassy attitude from time to time, or at least, very cynic <D  The guy on the right among them is Leo, my geek OC of whom I almost never post any art ;v;

2° Then to the right we have a drawing of NovaStar000's persona and mine, with flower crowns. 

3° A couple more of Morcks, the one to the left is from May or June maybe, and the one to the right was made a couple days ago.

4° Next row, to the left, is a sketch I did of CuddlesAndHuggles's character Gentry, a few months ago. Because hell yeah, dude-bro likes kawaii things.

5° Then to the right is a vortian dude that I drew to practice... or somethin'. Probably how Aion (vortian OC of mine which you haven't heard of yet) looked on his younger days ashdkajd you'llknowofhimlaterrrr

6° Then next row are Enya and Almaca from TheEvilTeaDrinker, which I drew on March? Or April, I'm not so sure >>;;;  Almacaissocuteandnoonecan'tdenyit

7° "What the f*ck dude" - Morck

8° Then to the right is a sketch practice of Wizard Vax I drew on June or July.

9° After thaaaat there's Gentry again with CRIM-ZIN from CuddlesAndHuggles, which I drew for a sketch stream in...June? not suuuure

10° Then there's a grumpy Kurt, also from that stream and that belongs to CuddlesAndHuggles

11° Then to the left, next row, we have some slight angst from a planned RP scene with Vortx and Rec drawn in April (with the lovely TheEvilTeaDrinker) *cries*

12° To the right, there's a full sketch of NovaStar000's persona, also from June. Isn't she lovely?? akjdhasjkd

13° Okay, SO, to the left-almost-center, ahem... there's a Cory from serenadefox, ALSO from that one stream in June. I'm staring at you Fox, you thought of this idea though I can't complaaaaain

14° Next row to the left there's my lovely Rex in his irken version. He's not very social, as you may see. <|D

15° Theeeeeen to the center there are my two characters Morck and Vax, having a small discussion over Morck's fashion sense (which is to say, Vax thinks he has none).  I'm not so pleased with this drawing, but this is totally how their interactions go on a daily basis. They're besties tho, don't get them wrong

16° Almost done!! And to the left there's the irkensonas of both serenadefox and I, forming a dynamic duo~ From April, I think.

17° And last but not least, to the right, an unfinished drawing of Vortx and Rec. This... I'm not sure what they're doing, I think they're inside a tight space, hidding or something, and they're too close from eachother...which totally causes sexual tension between them, Tea you know what I mean.



*WHEEZES* That was long. I might do another one of these, since I just know that I have a lot more of sketches. I just.... have to find them in my multiple sketchbooks *cries*

Gentry, Kurt, CRIM-ZIN (c) :iconcuddlesandhuggles:
Cory, Irkensona (c) :iconserenadefox:
Persona (c) :iconnovastar000:
Rec, Enya, Almaca (c) :icontheevilteadrinker:
Vortx, Morck, Vax, Leo, Irken!Rex, Aion, Irkensona (c) :iconalison-lynn:
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I just can't. I can't. I'm too tired, I'm too angry, I'm too everything.

My art remains the same as before, my ideas don't change, I've acomplished NOTHING during this year which is about to end. How the fuck do  I even expect to study animation?? My mother doesn't want me to, I doubt of my skills, and everything is looking so dark right now.

I've been hurt again and again during the year; I haven't recovered from my depression ever since January or February; I keep getting replaced by someone better; I'm losing my friends; I'm losing my motivation; I don't even know what the hell I'm going to do with my life. I might end up studying something I don't want to for years and once I'm finished realize that I've wasted so much fucking time of my life.

I see how the people I admire continue to grow as artist and I stay stuck here. I'm tired.
Maybe I'm not fit for this after all? But I don't want to do anything else.
"Why are you drawing manga again?  You'll never acomplish anything" I don't even draw manga you dumb fuck.
"Again with those doodles? Do something productive for once!" This is what I want to do with my life, do you understand the concept of getting better??
"Of course you're my best friend" Right, and that's why you left me for someone else as soon as we changed classrooms. You don't ever speak to me even though we're sitting right next to eachother this year.
"I love speaking with you" Yet we haven't spoken more than 10 times in this whole year, most were 5 minute chats.

I'M SICK. I CAN'T DO THIS. IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND??? WHO CARES ANYWAYS, ALL I'M DOING IS WASTING MY SHORT LIFE TIME. WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO IMPORTANT TO YOU ALL OF SUDDEN? YOU NEVER CARED FOR WHAT I WANTED BEFORE.

AND IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE REALLY CARES FOR MY ART. ALL I CAN DO IS SHITTY BUSTS IN SHITTY ANGLES. I MISS MY CHARACTERS, I MISS DRAWING FOR FUN. NOW I JUST DO IT TO FEEL BETTER, AND THAT IS MAKING ME SICK.




I might be in a hiatus for a bit, to calm things down. Sorry. Not like it'll make a difference anyways. Happy holidays.
  • Mood: Rage
  • Reading: Gekkan Shoujou Nozaki-kun
  • Watching: Les Revenants (The returned)
  • Playing: DMMd
  • Drinking: Water

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Irken Loyalist by KeeiranInvader Zim Classic Stamp by Dibsthe1The Amazing Jhonen +Stamp+ by GuinnygirlTallest Red Love Stamp by smileystampsTallest Purple Love Stamp by smileystamps.: Aliens makes me happy :. by PirateHeartsTraditional artist stamp by WhiteKimahriI Support Cyshkil by TheEvilTeaDrinkerElectro Swing by Miss-DicessKeep Calm and Canta y No Llores by ChokorettoMilkusupport stamp - Cory by serenadefox

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ITS ALMOST TIME
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Thanks for the fav !

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You're welcome!
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participation in the LiveStream. watching beautiful productions of art accompanied by super soundtracks and boiling flow communication to chat.
Alison-lynn gallery here on deviantART. Grateful.
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My appreciations for the fave on Myr's combatant card!
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No problem!! 
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Thanks for the fav!
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You're welcome!
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Thanks for the faves and also wonderful artwork 
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No problem!! Aww, thank you again :heart:
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